Changes

So, I'd thought I'd take a minute to reflect. I've found out some things about myself that I'm actually very greatful for. Independence is something people can claim they have, but until you have to rely on yourself and only yourself with no family or friends around for hugs or encouragement (which for some reason over here, encouragement is treated like a dirty four letter word), than you dont really know what you are capable of. I'm going to take a minute to say that I'm truely blessed to have the family and friends I have back home. These things people often take for granted every day. I know I did. You have no idea how much that physical, emotional and loving support surrounds you until its gone. Honestly, I miss that most of all.

A word keeps popping up in my head as I try to find some peace here. Tranquility. A level of peacefulness that I havent had since I was home on leave, sitting on my parents porch, petting my animals and listening to the wind, nature and peace. No generators, highway traffic, soldiers yelling, sterios blasting or the noise of people walking in gravel outside of your paper thin walls. When my neighbors crack thier knuckles, the sound is as if they were sitting next to me in an acousitical environment.

Mostly I miss road trips where you have your music, the road and nothing but time.

Now, I hope this is not a discouraging blog, and one that just helps everyone realize how lucky I am and all the things I miss about being home. Its nothing to be sad about, in fact, it should bring you joy as it does me. Joy that I have those things in my life and that I realize how beautiful these things really are to me.

Also, I should add that I've been up for 19 hours, still have 15 hours of a shift left and keep getting into trouble for closing my eyes :) Gotta love the Army. Whats sleep again? Wheres my tempurpedic bed and down comforter? Saturday mornings and high def movies on my big screen with the ability to turn all sound off and drift away. Peace and quiet.... man I'm spoiled back home haha.

Miss you all! Take a deep relaxing breath in the peace and quiet that surrounds you and send those vibes my way!